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something old i found while scavenging around. this is SOOO old but it’s parallel to the situation I’m in…guess life does repeat itself. o_O

could it be more

Current mood:blessed

//…im a cool low jane 
with a skip on my feet
i play tough as nails with
my heart on my sleeve
im nothing but a sandcastle
baby dont blow me away…//

i believe in fate
destiny and soulmates
i believe everything happens for a reason
to break us down, build up, love harder, or stop loving 
right now i believe in him
i believe in me 
and somewhere in the future i believe in an us.
but my feelings are being halted
my heart is guarded
and my eyes cant take anymore
i wanna jump in with both feet
screaming fuck the world
but im hurt
scarred and buised
and with this pain i cant move
i cant let myself be hurt
and i know it wont happen
but what do i really know
i like when we’re together
because nothing is forced
everything blows like the wind
freely falling wherever it pleases
and i like it
i like the cuddling
and the wrestling
his aggressiveness
yet slight protection
deep affection
but right now it seems we’re moving fast
and we both know
that we cant rush
be too quick to touch
cause it may all just be lust
a winter fling
cuddle buddy jumpoff
bedwarmer until spring
disappear and run off
but on the flip side
i feel its real
or could be
compliments not completion
each’s upgrade
but as of now im fragile
this side up
look but dont touch
until i get myself together
there cant be more.

jpvb

first date in a while and it was fun. 

we clicked from the start. i should have known since we met shopping in Urban. just a regular ass Tuesday. for me anyway. i told him i liked his outfit (he looked like an extra from Saved by The Bell) and he told me he liked my face. bingo! guys who can make me laugh are always a plus. we chatted and i asked him to write his number on the back on my receipt. bagged him. :) we texted the next day. and the conversation just flowed. we planned a date for Friday the 13th.

the date (what we planned): meet him at his photoshoot (oh he models) then grab dinner from there.

the ACTUAL date:

I wake up at 7:53PM. shit is all i could say. the photoshoot was an HOUR ago!! i texted him. no response. damn. so i got dressed anyway and planned to go out for some solo sushi. As I was making a left turn on Kirby I get his text. green light. date’s on. i drive over to his place. he grabs his keys and we head out for a reverse happy hour at this cute little sushi spot. i was CRAVING the sushi. the hostess sat us and we ordered our drinks. a kirin and water with lemon sans ice. respectively. the conversation just flows. and we keep ordering. rolls and tempura and fried rice, etc. the restaurant starts to empty out. i look around and notice we’re some of the last people in there. we dip out. 

we head over to my friend’s house and have a little hippie session. continuing the conversation from the restaurant. we are clicking in so many areas. afterwards we head back to his spot, and just chill. keeping up the talk. the weeknd playing in the background. i look at my iPhone and 3:15 shows. shit its late. i tell him its time for me to go especially since he has work in the am. he walks me to my car we embrace and i kiss him on the cheek. the weeknd playing on my drive home. 

…Open your hand

Take a glass
Don’t be scared
I’m right here
Even though you don’t roll
Trust me girl
You wanna be high for this…

jpvb.